During that time, her mental state was severely deteriorating, filled with stress, anxiety, and pressure, all mixed together until it crystallized into thoughts of wanting to kill her husband. Moreover, when she thought about the lessons from raising her first child, it pushed her to decide to have an abortion as soon as she had saved enough money.
“We almost hit our own child,” she said loudly before continuing her story. When the baby cried, her husband would shout to wake her up to comfort the baby all night, and in the morning, she had to work in the cucumber fields and take jobs planting rubber trees. Her emotions slipped without her realizing it, and she was about to hit the child but regained her senses just in time.
“Deep down, every time we saw his face, there was a moment when we felt that whatever he did was not pleasing to us, even though he did nothing wrong,” she recounted her thoughts at that time. This made her realize that she was not ready for pregnancy because if she chose not to have an abortion, she would have to break the law again since another life has a cost to be born and grow, but she had no money. Secondly, she feared she might lose her temper with her husband and accidentally harm her own child one day.
“It was a decision that had to be made. I took a bus alone from Trat to Bangkok. I couldn’t tell anyone, not even my mother, as it would only make her more stressed, and she might fall ill, blaming herself for causing such a situation.”
Meanwhile, in the medical field, there is academic information indicating the negative effects on the fetus if the mother is not ready for pregnancy. The psychological impact not only affects the child in the long term as they grow, but worse, it affects the child’s development from the moment of pregnancy. The child’s development may be impacted, such as 1. Regression in fetal development 2. Impact on brain development 3. Premature birth.
“We think we made the right decision. If we accidentally harmed the child, how terrible would that be? And even more so if he was born and contracted HIV, which we found out after the abortion. How would everything turn out? For us, it’s better to end it with just us.”…
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Source: “The Suffering Without Legal Support” Open Heart “Rang-Supaporn” From Abortion Woman to Volunteer Counselor for Unplanned Pregnancy https://www.posttoday.com/social/general/580407